Orthoprax Pros and Cons

Pros:

• You don't have to break ties with your fundamentalist family and friends
• You can continue a lifestyle you're familiar with and continue living comfortably in a community you like
• You can continue enjoying the bits and pieces of Judaism you like

Cons:

• You have to speak with a bit of a filter in order to keep people appeased - AKA lie about your true beliefs
• You have to feign horror when hearing that someone has angered God by eating a cheeseburger
• You have to keep a lot of annoying and also useless things which mean nothing to you
• You have to take part in some morally offensive things like listening attentively to a chapter of the Torah commanding genocide... 

 Is it worth it? Or should we get out while we still can?

I'm at the point where I just wanna believe so that I can stop worrying about it. The clock is ticking and I'm not gonna have the opportunity to leave forever...

Inertia is strong through.

God, I wish I knew what to do....